I am so sick of being so gullible and trusting. Why is it that I fall for everything? Last week I went on a date and it was one of the best first dates I'd been on. It was just a simple dinner, but the company was so enjoyable to look at and to talk too. He made me feel beautiful and comfortable and myself right from the get go. We met online at eHarmony and had gone through all the answering of questions etc and I felt like I was really getting to know him. When he finally asked for the date, I was really excited as I was almost positive that he'd forgotten about me at that point (we hadn't chatted or emailed in about 2 weeks). And as I said, the date went well and there was lots of talk about a second date (from him). I was elated when he wanted to set a date early in the week. The second date was meant to take place up in W-burg but he ended up canceling because he was invited to the Obama rally at Old Dominion University. What an awesome opportunity for him and I can't compete with seeing the president speak (I know because I've seen him speak live and the man is amazing!). So then a new second date was set for the next day and I got stood up (a first for me) but I accepted his apology and left the rescheduling of the date in his hands. He promised to make it up to me, to plan a wonderful and romantic date. So when he texted me on Friday for a date, I was pretty happy. Unfortunately I had already made plans with friends to go to the movies. I told him that he could come with us and then he and I could do something separate afterwards... or if since it was hard to book a date, I postponed my stuff with my friends and met with him instead. I heard nothing back... NOTHING. I feel so stupid, like I am too forgiving, too trusting, too stupid. Am I gullible? Am I stupid? Am I too trusting? I don't want to have a hard heart or give up, but how much am I suposed to take? *sigh* I need my wonderful friends to be in my back pocket and brain while I walk through this process of finding Mr. Right. I don't want Mr. Right-Now anymore... I want Mr. Right but it's so hard for me to figure out the intentions of a guy.
"The Perfect Relationship"
9 years ago