In the midst of my pain and my recovery from the loss of a relationship, it is easy to get caught up in all the negatives. And that isn't who I am. I remember a time in my life when that was who I was, when I couldn't see the silver linings or the goodness in my life, but that isn't who I am now.
So even though I wrote an entry about the best things about single before, I'd like to say what I am grateful for... not in being single, but in leaving a relationship. Kelvin was never abusive or truly mean or anything but I will say that he wasn't honest with me and that was just as bad. So I am grateful not to have to worry about what was truth and what wasn't anymore. I am also grateful that I don't have to wonder what gifts were given from the heart and what came out of the guilt of his dishonesty. I am grateful for the strength of character that I value and that I have held strong to in all of this. I am grateful in learning more about myself through this process. I am grateful in learning more about the friends in my life and the support that they have given me. I am grateful in having grown as a person through the relationship and even more as it has ended. I am grateful for the wisdom I am still gaining in regards to relationships. And I am even grateful for the hurt and the tears because it makes me stronger and less afraid to feel things.
"The Perfect Relationship"
9 years ago